It's funny. I have experienced one of my biggest highs and largest lows since we got Sofie over the last 24 hours.
Let's talk about the high first. This is personal, and I don't think I have shared this with anyone.
My whole Sofie adventure really started when I went to a football game in Scotland with one my male colleagues. He was an avid supporter of the team we went to see, and it was a cold gloomy day in Scotland. Typically when my husband watches any game, he is uncommunicative and doesn't like to talk about anything except maybe a related football story. If it is HIS team playing, he is biting his nails the whole 90 minutes and it is inadvisable to talk to him. He is moody and frustrated and the atmosphere in the house is shitty for the whole game (and potentially half the day depending on the results).
With this colleague, he showed joy for being there, and he was open to talking about just about anything. He initiated many non-football related conversations (since I have been trained to be silent). In the middle of the game, there was a little 4 year old boy who was trying to see what was happening with the game and everyone was standing. My colleague noticed the boy and was touched by the little boy's father who hoisted him up on his shoulders so he could see the game. My husband wouldn't notice if I were on the floor bleeding to death.
In that moment, I realized I could have this life if I wanted. I really wanted a little girl and my husband hadn't been keen. I saw that there were people out there who be interested in little people and talk to me during football games. It was then that I decided I would start the quest for my little girl and try to improve the relationship we have.
This story comes full circle because yesterday, we went to our first professional football game with Sofie. The weather was fine, people were wearing jersey's of the local team at dinner, and we realized we could make the game. We went over, and Sofie was so excited. We got tickets, walked in, sat down, and watched the game. My husband was excited to be here and willing to talk. He noticed the little girl between us on the seats. Some ladies in the row below us gave Sofie a soccer ball and called her a "cute little thing". It was a magic moment. The circle was complete.
So, this morning is Easter Sunday. The Easter Bunny visited our house and left a carnage of candy and eggs everywhere. Sofie had a few and was riding high. My husband asked if I wanted to take her to ecstatic dance. We have been doing it off and on since Christmas on Sundays. It gives him a couple hours to himself, and it lets me dance (my favorite thing). Also, there is room for Sofie to spin and play. The only downside is that the group spends 10-30 minutes talking about feelings in the middle of the event, and Sofie struggles with the downtime. She is more of a "go, go, go" kind of girl.
The rules for the dance are that there is no judgement and everyone is free to express themselves. They advise to try not to talk but to dance. Noises are ok (like screaming, animal noises, crying, etc.). They say children are ok and this is an opportunity for us to come together and express joy in a safe way. They want parents to stay with their kids so they don't get hurt.
This morning, according to the weekly email, the dance started early. I thought we had avoided the downtime by arriving late. We got there, and music was playing. Sofie and I spun together round and round and round and round. She got comfortable after awhile and started dancing by herself. She was so joyful and happy, and I was really happy to be dancing and to be seeing her joy. Suddenly, they turned off the music and asked everyone to get in the circle. Sofie was there for a second and then went in the middle of the circle and started running around. The people around me were fine with it saying that she was experiencing the joy they hoped to experience. The moderator asked me to get her out. I took her outside to the foyer and outside to see a parrot while they talked. They talked for 20 minutes or more. Eventually the music started again, and we danced to a couple of songs. Sofie was really into it. Then a woman came up to me and started telling me that parents had to restrain their kids and that it wasn't ok that Sofie would say a few words out loud while she danced. It wasn't ok for her to sing. She also said I had to teach Sofie how to do a quiet time if I wanted to be there and told me that it would help if I told Sofie it was a quiet time (like I haven't done this a zillion times). I thanked her for her feedback. I had been trying. Sofie is high spirited and having a dancing outlet has been great for us. She is 3. She doesn't know her loud voice/soft voice very well. She likes to wiggle and doesn't do really quiet time. I feel very judged. I have been doing my best. I started to cry when the lady was finished. I decided that we should leave. I couldn't get my tears under control. Sofie was really sad to be leaving because she was having such a great time. This was the first time I had felt comfortable there by myself without my girlfriend who usually comes with us. I am home now and still feel sad. I had been wide open to receive, and the negative really threw me.
I thought I had found a place where I could be myself and be happy, but I am still looking. Maybe another day. Maybe we make our own playlist and dance at home. We will see.
Happy Easter.
Sunday, March 31, 2013
Sunday, March 10, 2013
Life is flying by again
It has been a month since I posted last. It is crazy. Once I got back to work, things became really busy.
Health wise - I am doing much much much better. The pneumonia is gone. It was a parainfluenza bug plus bacterial infection, plus sinus infection that was continuously circling through my sinuses/lung. I am still on steroids to breathe & just started some new antibiotic because my sinuses aren't the bestest yet. But, I am functioning. I am sleeping my 8 hours and "running around" the rest of the day. Ok, I am resting on weekends, but I am very active. I would say I am up to 80%. It will probably take 6 months to get the rest of the way. I am still on no-fly duty for long, international trips to India, but we do have a trip scheduled for Norway in May. I might do some work in Oslo while I am there. I am avoiding Paris for now. Oh, and we are headed for Chicagoland at some point because my grandparents are having some challenges.
At work, there HAVE been policy changes, and some parts of my job drive me crazy. I do feel like I am in a snake pit most of the time, and it is hard to know who to trust. The way the company is organized has added a lot of extra layers to get anything done, and the agility we had in the past is gone. Since I got back, my job has a different slant to it which excites me. I am getting to be creative & have innovative-thinking goals which excites me even more. I hadn't seen much draw to innovation within the last couple years, and that we are now thinking about it gives me hope we will remain technology focused. I also have been directed to start politicking & promoting myself (very uncomfortable with that). I am trying.
Enough about work - except I have put in some pretty strict boundaries about when I can work, and I have been very meticulous about respecting them. In the last 4 weeks, I only worked past 5 one day, and this is because there was a special meeting of people in town. It is really good.
Also, last week, I joined Washington Gym, which is unlike any gym I have ever seen. It isn't exactly cross fit. It doesn't have typical cardio machines. They run 5 sessions a day with groups going over different areas of the body. They use all kinds of stuff like weights, bands, rings, bars, hurdles, running, rowing, etc. I went 4 times last week, and although it was hard (and I am really out of shape), they are very respectful of boundaries and past injuries. Another interesting part with this gym is they reserve the right to "fire me" if I don't stick to the program. It definitely brings accountability to me, and I need that badly to stick to a program. The tough love thing could definitely work with me, I think.
The other part of the gym which is definitely challenging me is that they want me to follow the paleo diet. I have been vegetarian since last May, and paleo is NOT vegetarian friendly. Heck, I was vegan for a few months even. The last month I was sick, I started eating fish 1-2 times per week. That seemed like a lot of meat. Eating eggs for breakfast and tuna for lunch and fish/meat for dinner is crazy. I have been on meat overload. I wasn't eating red meat or pork per se, but I did have my first chicken on Friday (bleck) and I tried adding ground beef to my scrambled eggs like they said. I also had steak last night (like 2 oz). I am supposed to be eating a whopping 130 grams of protein a day (and 70! grams of fat). I was eating like 20-40g/day. It is a big adjustment.
This morning I broke down and had a smoothie for lunch with kale, banana, and berries. The paleo way is to add raw eggs (ick) or protein powder (really, did cavemen have protein powder??)... I used some of my veggie tricks and added hemp seeds and chia seeds. They seem to have the same fat/protein ratio I am looking for. I also tried adding almonds which is an internet trick I found. It appears there are some other paleo vegetarians out there, and I am going to try it there way before I go all meat all the time. Don't get me wrong, having a bite of beef was ok, it is just having it with every meal is so excessive. I don't like meat THAT much.
Now to the good stuff. Sofie is wonderful. Her imagination continues to grow. We have been playing castle legos for weeks, and we have built some really neat stuff. We have also had tea parties with the legos, and there is a lot of drama going on between Cinderella 1, Cinderella 2, Sleeping Beauty, Snow White, and Prince Charming. And don't get me started about what bunny 1 did to bunny 2. LOL. And the DALMATION is so naughty. And the horse ate all the apples. Hello Kitty did something last week and she has banished to downstairs only, and Minnie is back upstairs at bed time. The stuffed bunny is hiding in a drum most of the time (who knows why???). She is growing like mad. She can turn OFF lights now too. Her 3Ts don't fit her around any more which is pretty exciting. She eats mostly meat and fruit exclusively. We got her to eat caesar salad last night. She does like plain rice and noodles still. She has been skipping "treats" at night so she doesn't have to eat her brussels, pepper, onion, broccoli, cauliflower, etc. She will sometimes take bites. Sometimes no. She has figured out a trick that if she says she is "going to pee herself" at the table ... once something beautiful has been served, piping hot, at a restaurant no less... she can run around and go to the bathroom. After last weekend, her dad doesn't believe her any more. I was on to her weeks ago at home when she would finish a meal and instead of wanting to wait for everyone to be done, she would start whining. She isn't into hanging out with us - especially if there is no treat afterwards.
Her temper tantrums have been epic. She pulls out the tears any time we do something that isn't exactly what she wants. I put in some "tuition" with SuperNanny to reinforce the right principles last weekend. It annoys the crap out of Sofie that she isn't getting us riled up in "time out" these days. She has gone to exceedingly bad behavior (spitting globs of spit on the stairs, kicking, trying to destroy the stairs, etc.). I hope she doesn't try to pee/poop on them. I am not sure if I could NOT react to that. Then again, if she has to clean it up afterwards, it might be worth it. She is a handful.
Sofie does have rhythm though, and still loves Gangham Style. I am not sure how many american kids are listening to swedish house mafia and know all the words. Lol.
So all in all, our girl is doing super. Her mom is much better. Her dad is good. Onwards and upwards.
Health wise - I am doing much much much better. The pneumonia is gone. It was a parainfluenza bug plus bacterial infection, plus sinus infection that was continuously circling through my sinuses/lung. I am still on steroids to breathe & just started some new antibiotic because my sinuses aren't the bestest yet. But, I am functioning. I am sleeping my 8 hours and "running around" the rest of the day. Ok, I am resting on weekends, but I am very active. I would say I am up to 80%. It will probably take 6 months to get the rest of the way. I am still on no-fly duty for long, international trips to India, but we do have a trip scheduled for Norway in May. I might do some work in Oslo while I am there. I am avoiding Paris for now. Oh, and we are headed for Chicagoland at some point because my grandparents are having some challenges.
At work, there HAVE been policy changes, and some parts of my job drive me crazy. I do feel like I am in a snake pit most of the time, and it is hard to know who to trust. The way the company is organized has added a lot of extra layers to get anything done, and the agility we had in the past is gone. Since I got back, my job has a different slant to it which excites me. I am getting to be creative & have innovative-thinking goals which excites me even more. I hadn't seen much draw to innovation within the last couple years, and that we are now thinking about it gives me hope we will remain technology focused. I also have been directed to start politicking & promoting myself (very uncomfortable with that). I am trying.
Enough about work - except I have put in some pretty strict boundaries about when I can work, and I have been very meticulous about respecting them. In the last 4 weeks, I only worked past 5 one day, and this is because there was a special meeting of people in town. It is really good.
Also, last week, I joined Washington Gym, which is unlike any gym I have ever seen. It isn't exactly cross fit. It doesn't have typical cardio machines. They run 5 sessions a day with groups going over different areas of the body. They use all kinds of stuff like weights, bands, rings, bars, hurdles, running, rowing, etc. I went 4 times last week, and although it was hard (and I am really out of shape), they are very respectful of boundaries and past injuries. Another interesting part with this gym is they reserve the right to "fire me" if I don't stick to the program. It definitely brings accountability to me, and I need that badly to stick to a program. The tough love thing could definitely work with me, I think.
The other part of the gym which is definitely challenging me is that they want me to follow the paleo diet. I have been vegetarian since last May, and paleo is NOT vegetarian friendly. Heck, I was vegan for a few months even. The last month I was sick, I started eating fish 1-2 times per week. That seemed like a lot of meat. Eating eggs for breakfast and tuna for lunch and fish/meat for dinner is crazy. I have been on meat overload. I wasn't eating red meat or pork per se, but I did have my first chicken on Friday (bleck) and I tried adding ground beef to my scrambled eggs like they said. I also had steak last night (like 2 oz). I am supposed to be eating a whopping 130 grams of protein a day (and 70! grams of fat). I was eating like 20-40g/day. It is a big adjustment.
This morning I broke down and had a smoothie for lunch with kale, banana, and berries. The paleo way is to add raw eggs (ick) or protein powder (really, did cavemen have protein powder??)... I used some of my veggie tricks and added hemp seeds and chia seeds. They seem to have the same fat/protein ratio I am looking for. I also tried adding almonds which is an internet trick I found. It appears there are some other paleo vegetarians out there, and I am going to try it there way before I go all meat all the time. Don't get me wrong, having a bite of beef was ok, it is just having it with every meal is so excessive. I don't like meat THAT much.
Now to the good stuff. Sofie is wonderful. Her imagination continues to grow. We have been playing castle legos for weeks, and we have built some really neat stuff. We have also had tea parties with the legos, and there is a lot of drama going on between Cinderella 1, Cinderella 2, Sleeping Beauty, Snow White, and Prince Charming. And don't get me started about what bunny 1 did to bunny 2. LOL. And the DALMATION is so naughty. And the horse ate all the apples. Hello Kitty did something last week and she has banished to downstairs only, and Minnie is back upstairs at bed time. The stuffed bunny is hiding in a drum most of the time (who knows why???). She is growing like mad. She can turn OFF lights now too. Her 3Ts don't fit her around any more which is pretty exciting. She eats mostly meat and fruit exclusively. We got her to eat caesar salad last night. She does like plain rice and noodles still. She has been skipping "treats" at night so she doesn't have to eat her brussels, pepper, onion, broccoli, cauliflower, etc. She will sometimes take bites. Sometimes no. She has figured out a trick that if she says she is "going to pee herself" at the table ... once something beautiful has been served, piping hot, at a restaurant no less... she can run around and go to the bathroom. After last weekend, her dad doesn't believe her any more. I was on to her weeks ago at home when she would finish a meal and instead of wanting to wait for everyone to be done, she would start whining. She isn't into hanging out with us - especially if there is no treat afterwards.
Her temper tantrums have been epic. She pulls out the tears any time we do something that isn't exactly what she wants. I put in some "tuition" with SuperNanny to reinforce the right principles last weekend. It annoys the crap out of Sofie that she isn't getting us riled up in "time out" these days. She has gone to exceedingly bad behavior (spitting globs of spit on the stairs, kicking, trying to destroy the stairs, etc.). I hope she doesn't try to pee/poop on them. I am not sure if I could NOT react to that. Then again, if she has to clean it up afterwards, it might be worth it. She is a handful.
Sofie does have rhythm though, and still loves Gangham Style. I am not sure how many american kids are listening to swedish house mafia and know all the words. Lol.
So all in all, our girl is doing super. Her mom is much better. Her dad is good. Onwards and upwards.
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Back to the grindstone
Well, Monday was my official day back to work. It was tough. Yesterday was worse. There are a lot of new policies, and as I read them I got depressed. I don't like what I am seeing, and it makes me crazy that there is nothing that I can do to affect it. My philosophy is so fundamentally different, I feel like I am living a lie.
How can I teach Sofie the right values, when I struggle to assimilate all the demands placed on me on a given day? How do I teach her to make the right decisions when there is no right decision? How do I navigate through the snake pit and have my sanity at the end?
While I was sick, I spent a lot of time thinking about the types of jobs that have been created over the last 200 years. There have been some amazing advances, but there are also jobs that are a bunch of busy work that really don't serve a higher purpose besides having a guy get a bigger bonus at the end of the year for making/saving money.
Where I fit into this global network is really unclear to me. I want to make a difference. I want to do something meaningful. I want to help mankind. I want to feel useful. I am failing at the moment. I don't want to be depressed. I don't want to cry at night. I don't want to come home and want to get drunk every day. That isn't living.
I need to figure out that balance. I need to incorporate it with our lifestyle and finances. I need to ensure we have the resources we need for our children. It is hard. The path is invisible to me. I will keep looking.
How can I teach Sofie the right values, when I struggle to assimilate all the demands placed on me on a given day? How do I teach her to make the right decisions when there is no right decision? How do I navigate through the snake pit and have my sanity at the end?
While I was sick, I spent a lot of time thinking about the types of jobs that have been created over the last 200 years. There have been some amazing advances, but there are also jobs that are a bunch of busy work that really don't serve a higher purpose besides having a guy get a bigger bonus at the end of the year for making/saving money.
Where I fit into this global network is really unclear to me. I want to make a difference. I want to do something meaningful. I want to help mankind. I want to feel useful. I am failing at the moment. I don't want to be depressed. I don't want to cry at night. I don't want to come home and want to get drunk every day. That isn't living.
I need to figure out that balance. I need to incorporate it with our lifestyle and finances. I need to ensure we have the resources we need for our children. It is hard. The path is invisible to me. I will keep looking.
Thursday, February 7, 2013
Happy Chinese New Year (Welcome to the year of the Black Snake))
First off, Happy New Year! We will most likely be celebrating with our Asian community this weekend. Otherwise, we might have to hit up China town for amazing culinary goodness.
You can check out your Chinese horoscope for the year here: http://www.chinesefortunecalendar.com/2013ChineseHoroscope.htm
My predominant signs are water and metal. It could be an interesting year.
Things are going better, and I am slated to go back to work next week. I hope this is the last time that I have to be released for work in a long while! I am still exercising this week, and although I do get out of breath pretty quickly & my muscles are sore (yay! sore muscles!), I am so glad I am doing it. It makes me feel really good.
Yesterday, the hubby took Sofie to the Shriners for her annual checkup (can you believe it has been a year since she had the surgery?!). She is doing wonderful. She knocked the socks off the speech pathologist who saw her about 6 months ago. Sofie has learned so many sounds and her vocabulary is out of this world. The speech path couldn't believe it. She was amazed. I am so happy that Sofie isn't going to have to struggle with a speech impediment for her entire life. It was something that was in the back of my mind as a risk, and it is a great relief to know that she is good. They won't take a look at her for another year, and by then (right before Sofie turns 5), I expect she is going to be really, really good. I have noticed on the playground that Sofie's articulation is much better than many of the taller kids. We still need to work on the vocabulary. When other parents of kids turning 4 in a couple months talk about what their kids say, Sofie isn't there yet. Don't get me wrong - she has amazing vocabulary and sometimes I have NO IDEA where she finds the words she uses properly in context (not swear words; just normal every day words that seem pretty advanced for a 3 year old).
Her height was officially 40.7" (103.3 cm). I don't remember how tall she was when we got her. I think this summer, the height limit on on the kiddie roller coasters were 38 in and she just made it, but I could be misremembering. Her weight is up to 33.7 pounds (15.3 kg) - 7 pounds increase since last year (almost a third of body weight - wow).
Her soft palate is looking super-duper. We will have to wait awhile until the next surgery (5-6 years) if everything continues along this vein. I wish we could fix it all now for her, but having the plan is really comforting.
Sofers has been vey snuggly lately, and she loves her mommy. I love it. I admit it. I am a glutton for all the love that kid bestows on me. I am soaking it up while she still worships me, because I know it will not always be like this. In the morning, I am the first person she looks for and at night, she wants me to be the last person she sees. I feel for the hubby because he loves her just as much or more than I do, and she hasn't been as snuggly with him. But, I love it. She comes home from school and wants to sit next to me & watch a movie or play. She tells me I am her best friend. I feel her love shining like a beacon, and it makes a happy thought in my life. I wonder if this is how my mom felt about me when I was 3. I wonder if this is how she feels about me today. I wonder how I am going to let go?
At the moment, Sofie's favorite movie is "Monsters Inc" and she is wearing pigtails daily to look like "Boo". When I imagined having a kid all those years ago, I wanted her to be just like Boo, and that is what I got. Sofie is a carbon copy. It is awesome. And she has the same infectious laugh that makes you fall on the floor laughing too. I love it.
Anyway, I thought I would send an update to all. I hope your lives are doing great & that you have joy, laughter & happiness every day. Lots of love.
You can check out your Chinese horoscope for the year here: http://www.chinesefortunecalendar.com/2013ChineseHoroscope.htm
My predominant signs are water and metal. It could be an interesting year.
Things are going better, and I am slated to go back to work next week. I hope this is the last time that I have to be released for work in a long while! I am still exercising this week, and although I do get out of breath pretty quickly & my muscles are sore (yay! sore muscles!), I am so glad I am doing it. It makes me feel really good.
Yesterday, the hubby took Sofie to the Shriners for her annual checkup (can you believe it has been a year since she had the surgery?!). She is doing wonderful. She knocked the socks off the speech pathologist who saw her about 6 months ago. Sofie has learned so many sounds and her vocabulary is out of this world. The speech path couldn't believe it. She was amazed. I am so happy that Sofie isn't going to have to struggle with a speech impediment for her entire life. It was something that was in the back of my mind as a risk, and it is a great relief to know that she is good. They won't take a look at her for another year, and by then (right before Sofie turns 5), I expect she is going to be really, really good. I have noticed on the playground that Sofie's articulation is much better than many of the taller kids. We still need to work on the vocabulary. When other parents of kids turning 4 in a couple months talk about what their kids say, Sofie isn't there yet. Don't get me wrong - she has amazing vocabulary and sometimes I have NO IDEA where she finds the words she uses properly in context (not swear words; just normal every day words that seem pretty advanced for a 3 year old).
Her height was officially 40.7" (103.3 cm). I don't remember how tall she was when we got her. I think this summer, the height limit on on the kiddie roller coasters were 38 in and she just made it, but I could be misremembering. Her weight is up to 33.7 pounds (15.3 kg) - 7 pounds increase since last year (almost a third of body weight - wow).
Her soft palate is looking super-duper. We will have to wait awhile until the next surgery (5-6 years) if everything continues along this vein. I wish we could fix it all now for her, but having the plan is really comforting.
Sofers has been vey snuggly lately, and she loves her mommy. I love it. I admit it. I am a glutton for all the love that kid bestows on me. I am soaking it up while she still worships me, because I know it will not always be like this. In the morning, I am the first person she looks for and at night, she wants me to be the last person she sees. I feel for the hubby because he loves her just as much or more than I do, and she hasn't been as snuggly with him. But, I love it. She comes home from school and wants to sit next to me & watch a movie or play. She tells me I am her best friend. I feel her love shining like a beacon, and it makes a happy thought in my life. I wonder if this is how my mom felt about me when I was 3. I wonder if this is how she feels about me today. I wonder how I am going to let go?
At the moment, Sofie's favorite movie is "Monsters Inc" and she is wearing pigtails daily to look like "Boo". When I imagined having a kid all those years ago, I wanted her to be just like Boo, and that is what I got. Sofie is a carbon copy. It is awesome. And she has the same infectious laugh that makes you fall on the floor laughing too. I love it.
Anyway, I thought I would send an update to all. I hope your lives are doing great & that you have joy, laughter & happiness every day. Lots of love.
Monday, January 28, 2013
Flying
Time is flying by, and I don't have much to show for it. I spent a week in the hospital, and I had sinus surgery last Monday. I have been home for a week now, and things are still healing. I felt pretty good in Saturday and did some cleaning around the house. Yesterday, I felt awful and slept a lot of the day. Then, I couldn't sleep all night. This morning came awfully quickly.
I am feeling more normal today. It could be day 1 without pain pills. I also polished off my last antibiotic this morning. The taper with steroids will start in a day or two. I am in the road to good health. I restarted my diet this morning. Espen went for a short walk outside with me for 20 minutes and I finished. That was pretty exciting. I probably went about a mile. I was thinking I could try to do 2 walks a day to get my blood moving. It felt good to be outside and get a little sun on my face. It has been a long while since I was outside.
Sofie is doing really good. She is real happy I am back home. She has been mostly gentle with my face avoiding contact wherever she could bash me. She is a really good, happy girl. I love her sweetness (you know - when she isn't being naughty). I can't believe how she is growing. In a couple week s, I swear she grew 2 inches. None of her 3s are long enough and even the 4's are short. We bought her a bigger pair of shoes a couple weeks ago, and I think she has just about grown out of those too. Crazy.
So, things are moving slowly, but they are moving. I am dreaming about gardening.
Monday, January 14, 2013
Good thoughts
I am headed to the hospital this afternoon. They still have no idea what is wrong with me. The doctor thinks the best thing for me is to be under 24x7 observation/medication, so I am going for it. I don't know how Sofie will take it. The hubby and I are both having a hard time with it to be honest. After my awful experience at the hospital last week, I am hoping things will be better. I hope she is fine.
Please think good thoughts for our family.
Please think good thoughts for our family.
Saturday, January 12, 2013
Tough Saturday
I had a bronchoscopy a few days ago, and the doctor took me off my antibiotics/steroids in order to prepare for it. He took samples of the gunk in my lungs and sent it to the labs for processing. In the mean time, I am on sustaining asthma meds with no steroids & doing breathing treatments every 4 hours. I can't breathe still, and it is hard.
The hubby has a bad tooth that he meant to get a root canal on last week but due to weather related problems had to delay. He is in extreme pain, and his face is swollen.
We are a challenged duo, and I have no idea how we will survive a fast paced weekend with Sofie. Oh, did I mention it is raining too? LOL.
I am taking my breathing treatment now, while he watches her. It is the first moment I have gotten off since 7:00. I am tired. I am really ready for this lung disease to pass. I can't wait to find out what it is and to eradicate it from my system. I wonder if I will have to go to Phoenix to dry out my lungs?
I am sorry if I sound whiny today. We have extenuating circumstances, and this has been going on since October 12. Such a long time.
Sofie is doing really good overall. She seems healthy and is growing like a weed. She is past 42 inches and weighs about 33.5 pounds. Her speech has improved so much, it is amazing. The speech therapist is so pleased with her ability to make lots of sounds. I think having me home has really helped her speech development. LOL. I am not sure she understands everything yet. We are really struggling with telling stories and having her follow along. She does really well with books where you identify 1 word at a time. I am working on things by telling stories in the evenings, and we let her watch the same television programs over and over again until she has every word down. I only get a little mental by watching the same show 6 times in a row...
So, think good thoughts for us. We are hanging by a thread. If anyone wants to come over and babysit (and take Sofie to a rainy park), just give us a call.
The hubby has a bad tooth that he meant to get a root canal on last week but due to weather related problems had to delay. He is in extreme pain, and his face is swollen.
We are a challenged duo, and I have no idea how we will survive a fast paced weekend with Sofie. Oh, did I mention it is raining too? LOL.
I am taking my breathing treatment now, while he watches her. It is the first moment I have gotten off since 7:00. I am tired. I am really ready for this lung disease to pass. I can't wait to find out what it is and to eradicate it from my system. I wonder if I will have to go to Phoenix to dry out my lungs?
I am sorry if I sound whiny today. We have extenuating circumstances, and this has been going on since October 12. Such a long time.
Sofie is doing really good overall. She seems healthy and is growing like a weed. She is past 42 inches and weighs about 33.5 pounds. Her speech has improved so much, it is amazing. The speech therapist is so pleased with her ability to make lots of sounds. I think having me home has really helped her speech development. LOL. I am not sure she understands everything yet. We are really struggling with telling stories and having her follow along. She does really well with books where you identify 1 word at a time. I am working on things by telling stories in the evenings, and we let her watch the same television programs over and over again until she has every word down. I only get a little mental by watching the same show 6 times in a row...
So, think good thoughts for us. We are hanging by a thread. If anyone wants to come over and babysit (and take Sofie to a rainy park), just give us a call.
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