Back to work - Take 2

Some of you know that I have been really ill for awhile.  I was mostly out of the office from mid October through yesterday.  I did have a brief stint working part time in December, but then the doctor took me out again because he changed all my medications (5) and he didn't want me acting weird as my body adjusted.  It is a lung thing. I don't know when it will go away.  They don't know what it is.  They are going in and taking samples from my lungs on Thursday, and then it could take up to 10 weeks for results.  Yuck.

Anyway, at my last doctor's visit, he said, "are you bored? want to go back to work?" and I said sure.  I am not better, but at least I will have something to occupy my mind during the day.

I went back to work yesterday, and it kicked my butt.  I made sure I only worked my 8 hours (not 10-12 like "old me").  I had to do the drive back/forth (1 hour). I did breathing treatments in the office.  I came home, collapsed, and didn't spend any time with Sofie.  I just didn't have it in me.

Today, I woke up early, went early for my early meeting, and then had a breathing treatment in the office (hate it - we have windows in our offices, and there is no privacy). At about 11:30, I started having a full asthma attack, and my neighbor came into my office to see if I was going to die. He watched me do my inhalers and helped me packup my stuff to come home.  I was very self conscious about having him watch me do my inhaler.  What if he were grading my technique?  (Yes, I am a little crazy).

The good is that I have a full office in my house.  If I choose, I don't have to add the additional hour commute every day.  Also, I get to see Sofie in the morning.  Oh, and the office doesn't have to watch me take drugs every couple hours.

The bad is that Sofie has no idea why mommy can't play with her while she is in her meeting (and won't listen to me tell her that I can't do our morning routine).  We will see how it goes tomorrow.

Anyway, I am hoping I will get to keep working. It is good to be busy and do something useful. I hope I am getting enough oxygen to make good decisions (and that my personality isn't too affected by the meds).

Hopefully we can say goodbye to lung sickness soon.